Haven't blogged in a few days, haven't been motivated. I've been doing my jumps, I've been doing my exercise, I've been hitting my grams... just kinda bored. Workouts are tough, but I'm digging them. Changes in the body are great. Been doing a bunch of thinking about how things work after PCP and what kind of balance I'm going to strike, and my attitude changes daily.
Over the weekend I was thinking about how to extend things because I'm not quite "where I want to be", not that I know where that is. Yesterday I was thinking about what kind of balance will be realistic in terms of things like bringing lunch to work vs buying lunch. Today I just want it to be over. I'm not slipping, I'm not quitting, I just want to be able to grab dinner with friends. I want to be able to go out on the weekend and not have to plan my food ahead of time. I want my friends to ask me what I'm up to and if I want to hang out without immediately following it up with "oh, sorry, forgot you're still doing PCP".
Really, I'm not in a negative place right now despite the tone of the post. I'm thrilled with the progress I've made. I'm in an incredibly better place both mentally and physically. Just after doing this for nearly 6 of the last 7 months I'm ready for a change of pace.
Until tomorrow that is when I'll probably start thinking about how to keep pushing this forward again.
Wow! I can't imagine how big of a journey you've been on ---- your results show it though! I think you deserve a little down time when you're done! Great job!
ReplyDeleteBeing sick of this is a sign of good mental health. We'll work out a strategy for you to get where you want to be... although for you, it's a voyage into the unknown!
ReplyDeletehey Brian, as I've said before, I need at least another 90 days to get to where I need/want to be as well. Feel free to join me, whatever way that may be. I haven't figured it out yet either...
ReplyDeleteYes - you've done two extreme programs back to back. A break sounds in order as socially this is really difficult. On a brighter note - man: you are completely a different person. I hear you on wanting to continue - possibly a program balance between the now in PCP and life before. Keep it up mate.
ReplyDeleteyou know what I am gonna say...
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